Today is the day. The day that the studio opens its door for the first time and our beautiful community of yogis and beyond enters the space.
I can hardly believe the past two months has come and gone. Renovations, the completion of our final session at the Kins Hall, the holidays, a trip home, it honestly flew by. And now I sit here on the morning of January 7th reflecting on the time spent prepping this space (and our mentalities) and anticipating the evening to come and hopefully a long, healthy studio life full of positive energy and all around good vibes.
Am I nervous? You bet your ass I’m nervous. Nervous seems an understatement for the feelings that accompany this risk that feels so larger than life. We quite literally have no idea what sort of success this studio will have in Lac La Biche. We’ve also never done this before, so everything we’ve done up to this point and beyond (excluding teaching yoga) is muy neuvo.
When I graduated in 2015 did I think I’d be co-opening a studio in 2017? Nope, it never even crossed my mind. It was always on my radar, a dream, but I never thought the universe would grant me this opportunity so soon. I mean, in the grand scheme of the practice of yoga I’m a newborn baby. I’ve only just scratched the surface of what it means to live consciously. What makes me think I’m even ready for this chapter?
When I ask myself that question it’s answered by a very honest voice in my head. “My readiness was decided by the choice I made, and even more than nervous I feel exhilaration and curiosity.”
I have known for quite some time that my mind works in atypical ways. For the longest time I wished that my mind could just function normally. I wished I could make a definitive decision about what I wanted to do with my life and then take the steps to do it. It wasn’t until I began practicing yoga myself and then sharing the practice with others, always a student first, that I realized how profound the effects of yoga are to me. My mind is atypical and when I practice yoga I’m able to not only accept that reality, I’m able to embrace it. Yoga has given me meaning. It’s allowed me to feel some form of peace with myself. And when I teach, that is what I want to share with others, the peace that yoga has brought me. In sharing my experiences with yoga, guiding others through a practice that is completely their own, my hope is that others will experience peace of being as well.
That’s where the exhilaration and curiosity comes from. I am elated to see the progress I have made in my journey to self-realization; I see the progress the yogis in my classes have made over the past year, and I feel fuelled to continue down this path. I want to know where this practice can take me - can take you - can take us. We practice together and we become aware of each other’s feelings, beliefs, values, attitudes and actions. We learn to respect each other from the inside out. Our community becomes stronger, more resilient and warmer hearted.
So, am I ready for this chapter?
“My readiness was decided by the choice I made, and even more than nervous I feel exhilaration and curiosity.”
I choose the practice of yoga. And I will make this choice time and time again. This studio is the manifestation of that choice. I am as ready as I will ever be. And with my growth as a practitioner and a guide of yoga, with the strengthening of mine and Jenny’s bond as friends and co-teachers, and with the opening of this studio, new opportunities will present themselves, with time. And I’ll be ready for those too.
You are welcome here, you are respected here, and you are cherished here. This is my spot, your spot, our spot.